DREAMS OR REALITIES

Dreams an involuntary occur in mind wherein you can think everything and it will depend on you if you will take it in reality.

Speaking of reality, it is where the truth and where we actually exist. Dreams and Realities, this two continue to mess up my mind in a good way sometimes in a bad way. But let me tell you how it started.

I always dream to be a strong person to protect my family but I dreamt the opposite, a weak and dependent one. I always dream to be reliable person, but I dreamt loneliness and doubts. I always dream to be successful and confidence but I dreamt failures and anxiety. Dreams, I dream to be Policeman someday but right now it is still a dream.

Elementary, I always think that if I study harder I will know what I want. Higschool came, and many things change. Many experience and lessons that shape me, many mistakes and dissapointments that down me. Yes, I know it is part of life and everything so here I am continue to move forward.

Senior High School, two years that impacted my life and beliefs. This is where the realities came. The reality where it hit me big time. Many choices, many regrets and many more. But I am still the young boy that have messy mind, nobody knows.

I dream to be successful policeman but the reality came which is the pandemic. Many adjustments, too much questions and too much for my mind. It is hard, very hard to handle. The pressures, the new normal and new environment. But still I continue with my thinking that it will be alright. And that is the reality hit me, College.

College, where I can take what I want, Bachelor of Science in Criminology. I always give my best in every thing. But my mental does the opposite. Mind you, I don’t want it, very hate it but still it lives with me. I tried my best to ignore the demons around me to fulfill my dreams but still the reality suck me until I don’t know where to go.

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I know, I will always know that I cannot make sense but I am hopeful that this will make sense. I write this not just for the sake I will comply the subject but I write which is for the first time about my feeling and sufferings even though in a subtle way.

All in all, I think I have a very long road to fulfill, a very hard rocky road to suffer. I will take it willingly. Step by step, I will be fine. I still want to fight my dreams to become the reality. Even though the demons (pressures and disappointments) will always beside me, I will push my self.

I know this blog is not perfect but I pour myself into it and I am very proud of it. I will not end this, I rather think this is the beginning. Dreams or Realities. Dreams will always feel you lightheaded and want to fulfill satisfaction but let us not forget the Realities, where all exist. And I hope (to myself) that I will still standing strong continue dreaming so that it will became reality and will reach to the end.

Cheers to my mind and my life. Hang in there we will get our dreams and soonest will become reality.